you're my friend, I guess. am I your friend?

sometimes, it's hard to find out that everything is going wrong.
 I've made a mistake, but don't just blame. don't just figure out who's the wrong or the right one.
it's appeared because of the matter of time.
don't have enough time to spent together doesn't mean that we're apart.
doesn't mean that I'm the person who have forgotten friends.
doesn't mean that you have to make a judgement about it.
you all are my everything in the world.
you wiped my tears, you held my hands, you took our picture and placed it in the most important place in your life. but sometimes you hurt me. by the cruel judgement that makes me perfectly  frustrated.
you hate me whenever I have other person to laugh with. but it's just the way I hold off the tears of being hurt by you. you're happy without me. it can be seen from how many times you guys go out together without me.
I don't mind it. but if only I could be honest, I'm hurt. you are people that know me pretty well.
you know which things hurt me and which is not. I'm sorry for whatever it is that makes you misunderstand.
I still feel that I'm your friend. hopefully I'll be a good friend. so please, don't just blame me. because there's nothing we can blame. we just don't have enough time to spend with.
I thought you understand. and can't stop to hope it.

Kejam

sejenak barat tampak berbeda….

Bukan dengan mata, ku meliat peraduan senja..

tapi hati yang  terluka mengingat kau pergi kearahnya…

dengan cinta yang terbata-bata…

yang tak sempat kau torehkan dalam lembaran kisah kita…

saat kututp mata, bayangmu tampak terbagi dua..

kau cinta yang kepadamu aku beralasan hidup..

kau benci yang hadir ketika kau lebih memilih pergi..

di sisi mana aku dapat bernafas dengan tusuk perih panah mu?

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---Siti Aisyah---