how come!! this feeling stricked me!

It all ends here ... all the sorrow ends here ...
You took me from the pain .. You wiped away  my tears ...
You held my hand tightly. You spread my wings gently.
ouch..it was all my dreams
I'm too fools to think that it will comes true
don't ask me why do I had a wonderful dream with you ..
because it will not be answered.
will you really need me?
will you be so miss me?
will you be so jealous to other guy who was trying to flirt me?
it's still a curious thing for me ...
but I want you to feel that.
I want you to try to find me when I can't be seen ..
I want you to beg me when I'm angry
I want you to bring whatever you have
but once again I say that it was all of my dreams!
I don't know how to let them become real
they like dove herds which want to fly above the clouds..
and you are the clouds which is so hard to be reached..
because, I'm imprisoned. with the fucking rules that i was highly respected..
how come!!
I will be surfive with all of that pain?
don't you know, I've broken the rules!
I do love you now....
I have wrote many letters to you,but none of them could be sent...
I have no preparation to see your face when you read them...
I do miss you so now....
since a day without you...
I keep doing something. make myself busy. but finally I realized that I was in my weakest time without you
and now, I'm tragic... I have to be strong though I really need someone to cheers me....
but over all, I just wanna say that all I wanted is you...